So, I am writing this when I am most vulnerable. I would assume this is my first mistake when trying to reach other people. I still wouldn't have it any other way. Otherwise, I'm going to hate myself for writing this when I feel better.
I am sorry.
 People I am going to piss off.
I just don't have it in me to change for everyone, but I am glad people have discovered that it's best not too.
However, I am scared to leave this site without my mark. I may soon die someday, or even after posting this post. There are an infinite amount of things that could go wrong. Yet, I have to be a courageous as the saints who had to experience much worst. I scared what God may put into the heart of man. But, who am I decide, and who am I to judge. And that's really the point of me trying to work this blog into something more. Create an atmosphere where people will at least notice their unconscious bias, try not to judge, and work to improve whatever they decide to improve---I do hope it's from God. However, I know I have opened myself up to attack by the evil or the people who think a certain way. I am sorry if I have offended you, but this is who I am...just like that is who you are. I am not trying to say that I know...because I don't. I have to remember to be humble, but sometimes it just happens...I am humbled. It's easy to be humbled.
I know I have to work on a lot of things. I really hope I can be myself. That's really the point of the blog. To let everyone know what's going on inside my head...at least the parts I can get away with---at least I hope. I am not perfect. My name is Arturo Miranda Jr. I am Mexican-American, I studied in several colleges. Yet, I never learned enough real experience to have the right "real" skills I could be proud of at the moment. The only other hobby out of the small investments in stocks, watching anime, painting, drawing, and learning is my writing...because I have only forced myself to keep my unique voice since the start of my education. Sometimes, I can write academic. However, whenever I can get away with it, I write with my real voice. I know it will hurt, if people are blatantly rude. And sometimes I just read things weird, because my brain misfires some neurons or something.Yet, I rather inspire someone to be humble and know me for who I truly am. Even, if your opinion of me could be that I'm crazy or something worse. Honestly, I hope it's more of that geeky, interesting friend you always liked hanging around but society told you otherwise...I wish I knew that kind of friendship, but I don't think I have truly had real friends. I grew up around people who just didn't want to open up to me, or maybe vice versa...either way I always want to be close. I just realize that's what people are afraid of. Even, if I end up being a lonely soul. That's who I am. I love unconditionally. Yet, it's so easy to break my heart sometimes. I won't be cool as some of you or as successful...but whatever God wants of me I accept. Otherwise what started as a parody, something to step out of my comfort zone, would have never been been pushed out into the world. I am human. I am not perfect. This has always been my way of accepting it, but now it's public---and anyone can make some assumption about me. I just the leave the rest to God now. For me and for all of you; I am seeking God's mercy.
Let the seeds be scattered, and may the crop grow where no seed has ever sown.

Matthew 25:14-30

The Parable of the Talents

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